You hear so much about postpartum depression and anxiety, even Hollywood shares these problems with us.  Well why didn't I ever hear of it starting during pregnancy?!  When I had Emma I experienced minor feelings of postpartum depresson.  Once, when she was a week or so old I ran to the store for diapers and left her home with my Mom.  Well there I was in Freddy's walking down the baby aisle and "Wind Beneath My Wings" came on.  Next thing I knew I was bawling, I looked down and I had leaked milk all over my shirt...luckily I was crying so hard that the big wet marks could have passed as tears:)  That went on for about six months or so, feeling sad and crying.  But everything I read said it was normal and it passed.  Then when I was about six months pregnant with Reaghan I started having really sad feelings, crying spells (ok crying days) I figured I was just hormonal.  Then I started having really bad anxiety feelings.  Well I had no idea that this could happen while you were pregnant so I thought I was going nuts!  Since I felt sort of embarrased I never expressed how awful I was feeling to my Dr.  until after childbirth when it got worse.  Now I know that it is totally normal and nothing to be embarrased about.  Our family doctor described it to me best.  She said its the part of you that kicks in if you were in a dark alley with your baby and your heard someone behind you.   That protectiveness you have for your child is just so amplified with all the hormones and stuff going on that it can make you feel anxious.  I get cut off at 300 words so I will continue this blog...